i am embarrassed

[merisey]

damn, As many others have said already at least you can take this one time with you and think of it God forbid another chance to drop rolls around. Great to know that you know it's a problem and you're not afraid to share/talk about it. We are all here for ya

oh, and no need to be embarrassed, just remember this time if a next time rolls around   

[frankieG]

well i woke up this morning and i had a suprise...my mother sitting in the living room watching tv and waiting for me to get up    oh boy

[werase643]

ya like frankie needs to shoot guns to relax.....since shooting guns probably is the cause of the stress

hang in there buddy

[yamahonkawazuki]

well i woke up this morning and i had a suprise...my mother sitting in the living room watching tv and waiting for me to get up    oh boy

how did that go?

[frankieG]

that went ok...i think ma wants me to buy a place in florida for the two of us to live.  in one of those over 55 parks.  as for firing weapons i think the only one you could get me out for is a tommy gun.  other than that i have done it.  everything from a pellet gun to firing from a tank, ship, torpedo blaa blaa blaa i fired, threw or ordered it fired pretty much all of it.   i threw a grenade once that did not go off and i had to go look for the f%$king thing to get rid of it, i was not happy with that.  i fired a carl g antitank rocket that hit the target(a tank) right in the gun BULLS EYE BABY.   

[DoD#i]

Update time - you hanging in there OK? Staying clean? Behaving your dang self?

Every day is another dang day. Every dang day you have to make the same dang boring right choices. Stick with it.

If you're going to a Florida trailer park, keep going south until you run off the mainland - it's nicer in Monroe County than the rest of Florida. If you're not quite sick and tired of it, you can even go dive, with nobody actively trying to kill you for a change. But the lobstah ain't got no claws to speak of.



Frankie, did you go to that place they measured the speed of light at for school? If so, you might know a guy I know, being about the right vintage.

[ohgood]

so many of you here know i have had a running battle with prescription drugs and cocaine.  i have been on the state methadone program for 3 months now and have been doing great.  but yesterday i ran into the wrong person at the right time and wound up coming home with some coke.  so as usual i injected it.  at first all was fine then uh oh something is wrong here.  my heart rate went through the roof and i thought my heart was going to jump out of my chest and i was going to pass out.  while lying on the floor i called 911.  i have to say i was scared.  they picked me up and my heart rate was 180-190 bpm.  fortunately within a couple of hours in hospital and some addivan i was OK.   they discharged me and i walked home and went to bed.   lesson learned....i don't want or need this crap anymore.  it is a death trap.  to my friends here...thank you for your help and support and please do not use drugs.   for those of you who were injured like i was and prescribed Oxycontin and other super strength opiate pain killers, please be careful and leaRn from my mistakes.

done, and done.

i've edited this post 5 times now. 1/2 of me is pissed at you for doing something that stupid. the other half wants to help.

1) how many hours since you almost did yourself in ?

think about it.

how much cool shaZam! you can do in an hour ?
make a fantastic supper  ?
change a tire ?
wash a bike ?
wash 20 bikes ?
masterbate                                                             5 times ? (hope you laughed @$$hole!)

man, get some help. beg for help. report the fucker that sold you the junk. get his ass off the streets.

repent.

2) how's about you keep THIS THREAD ALIVE WHILE YOU'RE ALIVE, and post your progress ?

you've got balls telling all about your mistakes here on gstwins. i'll give ya that.

questions 1 and 2 are not hypotheticals or me just pissing in the wind.

[bikejunkie223]

Wow, I'm new enough around here I had no idea of your addiction, and i'm sorry to hear it got the best of you. Unfortunately, as you well know, that particular monkey will always be in your closet waiting to jump out and on your back again. What would have happened if you hadn't gotten bad shaZam!? You may well still be using even now. You have to change your lifestyle, and perhaps location. I mean you could move somewhere and not really know where to get something like coke so that seems like it would be less risky? I don't know, I've never abused anything stronger than weed or booze and I drank enough in 6 years of the Marines, I rarely even drink now. Keep fighting the good fight brother, and stay clear of that shaZam!. You can post-whore enough sober, you don't need to get all spiked up

[yamahonkawazuki]

indeed frqankie. IVE got a gs, and enough cash to track you ass down should you ever do that crap again  ( seriously)

[mkrasavin]

all depends on your personality, certain drugs just arent right for certain people. especially if you have an addictive trait.
ive been prescribed almost every painkiller ever, and have use them occasionally for recreation(in a controlled environment, surely far as f%$k away from any bike)...from oxycondone, morphine, to levorphanol to buprenoprhine...just dont mix your uppers and downers especially with xanax/wellbutrin etc..

im glad your ok, everyone gets their scare and hopefully it can be turned into a lesson for you.
be safe.

[frankieG]

that episode sufficiently scared me that i am staying away from that crap.

[NiceGuysFinishLast]

Frankie, I haven't been around much, and I probably used to flame you for your posts a lot (I don't remember.. but I remember how I acted.. I still mostly act that way  )

I've done my share of coke, and while I was never addicted (not just denial.. I've only done coke maybe 10 times), I can understand how easy it can be to be addicted. It happens, and you're trying to beat it, which puts you miles ahead of plenty of other poor SOBs out there. Anyway, if you're serious about buying a unit in a 55+ park in Florida, drop me a PM. My parents own several, and I know they're trying to unload at least one of them... I'm sure they'll cut you a better deal than what they have it on the market for.

[yamahonkawazuki]

that episode sufficiently scared me that i am staying away from that crap.

ill Fuckin make sure you do